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  • Half Year Point Oracle Reading 2025

    Hello everyone! I was in the midst of conducting my halfway mark oracle reading when I had the thought, why not turn it into a collective reading? So, here is our oracle reading for the next six months of 2025! May it bring you peace, confidence, and an uplifting boost of energy.

    Deck used: The Green Witch Oracle Deck by Arin Murphy-Hiscock and Illustrated by Sara Richard!

    Link to cards: https://amzn.to/40aG8zg

    Note: I absolutely love this deck!!! The art style resonates with me so well as it is very whimsical and detailed! The summary of each card feels enlightening to read. I also love how after each description of the card, a reflective question is asked to further connect to the energy of the card.

    Card Descriptions are credits to the authors of the deck!! The summary and overall message will be from my own analysis! Thank you for reading!

    Cards:

    I never really do readings unless I am super calm and in good energy! I woke up in a very good mood today, went for a walk, and made a delicious smoothie with the idea that I wanted to do a reading today!!

    Here are the cards we pulled:

    Roots: Healthy, patterns, growth

    Moss Agate: Positive, change

    Fruit: Achievement, success

    Summer: Expansion, growth

    Card Descriptions (authors words)

    Roots: “Create a foundation, stability, and strength.”

    Reminder: Make sure your project has good roots. Take your time and build a healthy foundation for success. (pg. 99)

     Moss Agate: Stagnant energy may be safe but is restricting you from the growth that is needed. Plan and trust you are supported. Even in the feeling of unpreparedness, positive energy is flowing around you. Call on this stone for emotional security and you will receive it. (pg. 33)

    Fruit: Proof of an achievement. Hard work has yielded satisfying results or is about to! Be joyful! Things take time, energy, and attention. Even if work is invisible to others or behind the scenes, the fruit of that labor, however, is proof that energy was invested. Catch your breath and celebrate! (pg. 107)

    Summer: Boost of energy! Increased attention is needed to manage projects to ensure everything unfolds properly. Optimal time for expansion but keep an eye on the energies in your life so they stay focused and productive. Tend to the garden within you so your plant does not become overgrown. Some endeavors will fail as others overshadow them. (pg. 117)

    Group Message (my words):

    On your journey, you are being asked to start projects that will allow you to secure a strong foundation for your current and future self. Filter out any projects that are keeping you stuck in a cycle of stagnancy. Ask yourself, “In the start/ continuation of this project is it building strength, stability, and a foundation for my future self?” If not, take the steps to remove it. Think deeply about this, reflect everything in your life, whether that be work, projects, relationships, etc. This is a new start and now you can act on it if the first half of the year wasn’t ideal for you. Now is not the time to procrastinate if you wish to manifest change into your life! You are being asked to take a leap of faith and trust in your vision. The energy of positivity and emotional security is flowing through you! In this energy, you will begin to yield the results of your hard work. Even if that is internal. Allow yourself to sit in gratitude and truly celebrate your wins but don’t forget to keep supporting your garden to keep the energy and gifts flowing.

    Mya’s Reminder to You: Even if things seem scary or uncomfortable, you got this!! You would not have the vision if it was not meant to be executed by you! Let your dreams become a “when” rather than “if”. Ignore the negativity and keep going <3

    My Summary/ Analysis:

    Wow what beautiful reading this is!! I hope it resonated with you all as much as it resonated with me! It is interesting how in my current phase of life, I am in a season of a lot of change. I am trying as much as I can to build a stable foundation for myself. The roots card explains my current moment of life very well. Even though I cannot see exactly where my vision is taking me, it’s more of this inner knowing that I am on a good path. I know that the steps I am taking are aligning well with my future. As someone who could be known as the “chaotic friend”, I honestly grew tired of that label. As a teen, I didn’t really care but now as an adult, chaos doesn’t feel very safe. It is very stressful and an energy I don’t want to live in. So, it does make me feel peaceful knowing that I am allowing myself the ability to build that stability. As for moss agate, I fear this card may have called me out. Mm… is there someone recording my thoughts? Weird. I often do feel this feeling. The thing is, I feel we often view stagnancy as just no movement. When stagnancy can be simple things we keep in our lives as well. You know, that “oh, I’ll just scroll for 30 minutes”, then it turns into 3 hours. Lol. Sometimes, we don’t notice the things that keep us stagnant because they aren’t large. As I’ve been on this small journey of just creating, I stopped letting the feeling of unpreparedness stop me because realistically, we do have the things we need to start. I can give an example, My blog… If you notice, you’ll see I don’t own my URL yet… emphasis on yet because I will. Sure, money is one reason, but another is because I just want to ensure I show up WITHOUT the investment pressure. I show up and write on this website because I want to and I don’t have to worry about any pressures. I also wanted to be an example that you can start a blog at any time without the money restrictions in the beginning. You must try the thing, the longer you keep the mindset of “I’m not ready” or “I’ll start when I get (random item)” the longer you’ll continue to procrastinate. Trust yourself. As for fruit and summer, well, I believe these might be future cards!! I can’t see into the future, but I can trust in myself and that makes me happy!!

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  • Change is hard, but not changing is harder

    A personal story

    Why is it that for some of us, change feels so hard? Sometimes it even feels harder than suffering in comfort. That strange sense of comfort, even when it’s uncomfortable, can feel safer. Honestly, that’s how I felt for most of 2025. Like I was Simply existing.

    There were moments throughout the year when I was jolted out of that feeling, but the fear of change quickly crept back in and consumed me. It felt unnatural to want more for myself, so instead of working through those fears, I sat with them in silence. I ignored them, hoping they would go away. Eventually, the things I once found comfort in began to fall apart. The blissful fruit withered. I came to realize what I was experiencing wasn’t burnout from overworking, but from settling. For a while, I faded into the background, not wanting to be a burden or add more stress. In doing so, I dimmed myself. I tucked away parts of me that deserved light.

                A few weeks ago, I wrote an essay for my English class about the path I’m currently on. In my first draft, I noticed something was off. There was a huge disconnect. Rather than acknowledging my fears as internal, I found myself pointing fingers at society, at my family, and everything but me. While those external pressures are real and valid, I realized something important: in the end, only I can decide how I live. Whether I’m liked or not, I’m the one who has to live with me. So why not be the person who creates the life I’m meant to live. I submitted my first draft, even though I felt disconnected. And, as expected, both my peers and professor noticed it too. It wasn’t until I truly reconnected with myself that I wrote the final version… and I loved it.

                These days, I often remind myself: “It’s not a matter of if, but when.” Why deny myself something I was born to experience. That mindset is what led me back to my blog (again). It’s this intuitive pull that keeps telling me: I’m meant to be here. I’m meant to write. No matter the circumstances. Creative expression is how I leave my mark.

                Change has opened so many small but meaningful doors for me, ones I wouldn’t have seen if I had stayed still. I wouldn’t have discovered my love for school if I hadn’t gone back. I wouldn’t have discovered my love for writing if I hadn’t started my blog. And I wouldn’t have realized I’m actually pretty good at storytelling if I never tried creating for YouTube.  Each of these steps felt uncomfortable at first, but right. While these changes may seem small, choosing to make them, rather than staying stuck in a cycle of just existing, is what helped me emerge from burnout. Honestly, it might even be what’s dissolving the fear I’ve held onto for years.

                So, here’s what I’ve learned: never be afraid of the vision planted in your mind. No matter how limited things may feel, your dreams wouldn’t exist if they weren’t meant to be lived out by you. Nourish the plant within you. Water it with belief, intention, and movement. Because yes, change is hard, but never changing is harder.

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  • 3 months on Youtube Reflection

    Sometimes I forget that YouTube doesn’t have to be a space where everything is perfect. I lose sight of why I started my channel in the first place: to have a space for creativity, to challenge myself, build a community, and open up new opportunities. It’s a place where I can simply exist and appreciate the beauty of that existence.

    Lately, I’ve been preoccupied with producing stronger, more engaging content, but this focus pulls me away from the bigger picture. Since starting YouTube three months ago, I’ve realized a few things. For one, I don’t want to create short-form content anymore. It feels like it’s distracting me from the essence of why I began my channel.

    I started this journey to embrace a slower pace of life, to create long-form content that allows me to savor the experience. Short-form content—on platforms like TikTok or Instagram—feels rushed, and while I’ve stopped using TikTok, I still find myself consuming short videos on Instagram and YouTube Shorts. My brain craves it, and for a while, I thought I needed to create that kind of content too, just to stay relevant. But that’s not what I want.

    I enjoy the slower process, the quiet moments. Yet, my mind has been conditioned to find that boring. I know I need to combat this. Through my channel, I have the power to retrain my mind—to enjoy the slower process, to focus on the meaningful work that fulfills me.

    What sparked this reflection is:

    1. Three months of commitment: YouTube has become a meaningful part of my life. I can genuinely see myself doing this for a long time because I love it. Recently, I sat down and watched my own videos, something I hadn’t done before. Watching them made me realize how much I enjoy what I create. It feels calming and inspiring, a space where I can fully embrace my creativity.
    2. Inspiration from travel content: I watched a video of a girl enjoying her time in the Swiss Alps, and it reminded me of my love for travel—especially solo travel. It’s during those moments that my mind clears, and creativity flows. That video also reminded me to stop being so hard on myself about my channel.

    When I started, my intention was to create a space where I could simply exist, but lately, I’ve been consumed by numbers and engagement. If a video doesn’t perform well, I feel disappointed. But why? I’ve achieved so much in three months. I’ve shared pieces of myself and created something meaningful for me. That’s an accomplishment worth celebrating.

    In modern society, we often forget to pause and appreciate the progress we’ve made, big or small. I’ve hit so many of my goals in these three months, yet I haven’t celebrated them because I’m always asking, “What’s next?” It’s hard to sit in silence and simply acknowledge my wins.

    Watching that travel vlog reminded me that this slower, intentional way of living is something I can create for myself. I don’t view my channel as a monetary venture, but as a space to open new doors. The abundance YouTube offers isn’t just financial—it’s mental and emotional. Every day, I understand myself better, meet new people, and create something meaningful.

    This journey has shown me that authenticity is a gift. When I embrace my truest self, amazing opportunities arise. Financial gain may come in time, but what drives me is the ability to explore, create, and nurture a loving, authentic community.

    After three months, I’m beginning to understand who I am and who I want to be. I’m discovering the kind of art I want to create and the goals I can accomplish through it. In time, I hope to become the version of myself who is comfortable moving slower, embracing the flow, and creating what I love.

    The story I want to create is beautiful, and I need to lean into it—trusting the process, even when it feels uncomfortable.

  • To Live Life or be consumed by it.

    Short Essay by Mya Jones

    When I reflect on the past couple of years, I think about how much I allowed life to consume me. It hurts, if I’m being honest. I knew from my teenage years that my 20s would be a challenging time, but I didn’t think it would be as demanding as it actually is. I’m still trying to grow peace within myself, knowing that sometimes things just take time… that life has nearly just begun. I grew up with the impression that by my early 20s, I would be living my best life—hahaha. I imagined having this extravagant lifestyle, like the ones I’ve seen online.

    As I continue to figure myself out, I’ve realized that what I truly want is peace, independence, and abundance. I want to wake up and truly feel calm. I no longer have the desire to consume material things; instead, I want to immerse myself in life. I’ve noticed that when I seek instant gratification, I’m still unhappy in the long run. It’s only when I allow myself to slow down and do what may be uncomfortable in the moment—but ultimately fulfilling—that I experience pure joy.

    My 20s so far have been hard; they’ve taught me a lot that I wasn’t quite ready to learn. But through these lessons, I’ve discovered so much about myself. The lessons I wasn’t taught by parental figures, schools, or any higher educator, I learned through hard experiences. I figured out what I no longer desire from the hurt I’ve experienced. I find a sense of peace in that, even if, in the moment, it was heartbreaking or upsetting.

    Right now, I feel like it’s time to slow down. As I let life consume me, I realized that my body is taking the heat for it—emotionally, physically, and mentally. I am being consumed. At this moment, taking the time to just enjoy life and find peace in the mundane will bring me bliss. Previously, I avoided the mundane; I thought it was boring and too slow. But I’ve grown to realize it’s necessary—to just live in the moment and simply be. Sometimes, I forget to express gratitude, to just sit down and think of the blessings I currently have, the small things that bring me joy. Like this blog. Just typing this relieves me. I love it.

    Truthfully, I feel like the life I seek is waiting for me to seek it—to actually trust myself and follow the path of my soul. The more I avoid it, the harder I make my life. I don’t know my purpose, but I do know what I feel called to do right now. Yes, life has brought its challenges these past couple of years, but why am I allowing it to consume me? To break my very character? To hide away the version of myself I know I am meant to evolve into? My life has just begun, and I have to live it. Or I fear I will grow a bitterness, a sickness within myself, that will never let me live it.

    What if I actually pursued the life that I want? How would my life change? I’d rather take the risk of the unknown than settle for the societal obligations of adulthood. I want to allow myself to love the person I am, to grow confident in myself. I don’t want to feel a constant wave of stress and sadness anymore. I don’t want to be in the energy of disappointment and settling. I seek abundance and joy. I want to feel alive.

    In time, everything will work out. I just have to be patient with myself and take it day by day. Trust in myself and the person I desire to be. Life has just begun. Live it. Document it. Share it.

    Note from Writer~

    Thank you for reading my short essay, I just wanted to share a piece of my 20’s so far. If you are dealing with something similar or have thoughts about going into your 20s I would love to hear them. Thank you again and I wish you a peaceful day and sweet dreams 🌱🌤.

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